Am I heading towards Gnanodaya ?

"When I succeed I have a tendency to find out the people who supported and guided all through. When I  Fail I have a tendency to find out the people who pushed me towards it ................. Yes, now find some change in the way I look at all this. Now I seem to be realizing that I am responsible for all that which keeps happening to me. I think I am slowly and steadily that the way I take the after effects of success or failure is totally mine.
I dont know whether this is Gnanodaya or groping further into darkness. There are many things in my life for which I firmly think I am responsible. There are many more things in my life for which I am not at all responsible. But all that matters.
If  you think I am confused, it may me. The fact is that I continue to be so honest about my confusion. It is not important whether I am confused or clear, what is important to me is that I am so clear about my confusion. "
- LbnRaj

A Change in the way I look at life now ... and here

It is indeed a great relief in my life at this juncture  to graduate towards a a way of life where in I have started to commit and do the same old small thing in really great ways .... un imaginable ways. What a realization! What a finding! Had I got this realization some years back .... O Basava, .... I cant now imagine, how things would have been.
Yes, along with my efforts to scale and descend higher highs and lower lows, i have indeed started to do the same old things I do .... but IN GREAT WAYS.
Basava, thanks for supporting me  in my graduation towards this realization.

SEE FOR YOURSELVES WHEN YOU START DOING SMALL THINGS IN GREAT WAYS, NEW WAYS, OUT OF BOX WAYS.